I'll miss something I never had

I’ll miss something I never had

Reach desperately at the disappearing strands

Nothing’s certain, nothing’s true

I’ll claw and tear to the depths of the sea blue

Grasping for a ghost, a shadow, a whisper

Something that never really existed at all.

These late nights they make me think, often more than I can

To keep me sane

And just when I think from the depths I’ve escaped

And I can see the sun glinting on the surface of redemption

Something pulls me and plunges me deeper into these icy waters

This spell, this enchantment—this curse—

Has damned me in a watery, dark hell

Everything’s muted and blurred

I can never see straight

But I swim toward the light

Even though your current is stronger than my stroke